Freaking Out!

Daily Prompt: Safety First

Share the story of a time you felt unsafe

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When I read this prompt, the first thought that came to my mind was RIGHT NOW!  Now don’t panic, I’m not in any dangerous situation or in need of rescuing – except maybe from my emotions.  Here’s the scoop:

We are leaving in three days for an almost two week vacation in the western part of the United States. My husband has been asking and asking to take this trip with the kids for years.  I finally agreed. Now, as the date approaches, I am waking up in a cold sweat each morning – or should I say ten times a night.  I have that infamous pit in my stomach all day long. My heart races at odd times and I can feel it in my chest.

I know logically there is nothing to fear. But, I just prefer my life to be safe and predictable. Traveling to five cities I’ve never been to in eleven days feels anything but safe. I’m uncomfortable with flying. I’m sure my teenagers are going to end up goofing off and one is going to fall off the edge of the Grand Canyon. I’m nervous about all the unknowns that will occur. I’m not a risk taker or an adventure seeker. I would be happy sitting in my rocker and watching the grass grow. Guess it’s time to be stretched.

But, mostly, I am afraid I’ll lose my edge when I’m tired or sick (migraines are a pleasant part of messing up my routine) and be sharp with my family. I just want to be kind and gracious towards my family – not selfish and grouchy.  I want this to be a wonderful vacation that we will all look back fondly. I know my sharp tongue can ruin the moment more than getting lost or having a flat tire.

Lord,

You know my heart – you made me. I confess my fear to you. I know any allusion of safely is just that – an allusion.  You are my rock, my fortress and the one I run to. I pray you will strengthen me from within. I pray my heart would be selfless, loving, kind and gracious. Help me to be quick to confess my failures when they occur. When things don’t go my way, help me to remember that my attitude and character are more important than anything we see or do. 

Thank you for this opportunity to make these memories with my family and to see parts of the world you created.  You are an awesome God. I pray I would do the next thing even when my heart feels like it will faint within me.  Help me to be able to hike in the Grand Canyon and not be afraid – and please keep my kids safe. I’m trusting in your faithfulness and pray these steps will help me overcome my fear. I don’t want to live in fear. In Jesus Name. Amen.

Love God. Love Others.

John 13:34 “A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another.”

This was the text for the sermon our pastor preached on this weekend. Isn’t it funny how you can read a passage over and over – even memorize it, and then one day it jumps off the page like you have never read it before? That’s what happened last night when I read these verses.  As children we sing, “Jesus Love Me” and are taught to follow the golden rule. Love is the premise of the Christian walk. Unfortunately, I think it becomes like the picture you hang on the wall. When you first purchase it, it’s all new and you notice it every time you walk past it.  Fast forward a few months or years, you still love the picture, but you rarely notice it. It’s just become a comfortable part of your life.  I just love those light bulb moments when you see something fresh and new, as if you are seeing it for the first time.

Pastor began his sermon sharing a story of Green Bay Packer’s football coach, Vince Lombardi who delivered a powerful speech. He walked in with a pigskin in hand and one the group quieted down said, “Gentlemen, this is a football.” He went on to describe the fundamentals of football. You take this football and get it across the opponent’s line. You keep the ball from crossing our line. You tackle and block to accomplish this.  Pastor then when on to say John 13:34 is a lot like the speech Vince Lombardi gave his team so many years ago.

The Christian life can be summed up in two things.  Love God. Love others.

What a great reminder! Life can get so busy – How refreshing to stop and focus on what really matters. But, Pastor didn’t stop there. He made it practical. What does love mean? It means doing the right thing even when you don’t want to. Ouch. Now that’s making it personal. I thought about the times in my heart when I just couldn’t get there – when I just wanted my way so badly. I wanted to love, but I wanted my way so much more!  I knew at that moment God was asking me to go deeper with Him. He was asking me to make a commitment to love others and love Him, so the next time I was faced with a choice, the decision would already be made. I would remember this commitment and regardless of my feelings, I would choose love. As I’m mulling over what this commitment would look like, Pastor shared a story from Corrie Ten Boom on forgiveness.  If you know anything about Corrie, you know she was a prisoner in the concentration camps and suffered greatly. She spoke about forgiveness of a guard who mistreated her.  This video shares her story in her own words. It’s just a few minutes and so moving – it’s well worth your time to watch it.

As I’m listening to the suffering Corrie faced and processing all the suffering Jesus faced, my own seems so small.  Yet, I know when the going gets tough, I will be tempted to turn back to my selfishness and choose to love myself over God and others. I pray and ask God to show me clearly, beyond a certainty that I am to love, whatever the cost to me.  Wouldn’t you know it, Pastor concludes with a series of verses on love. One right after another.  After the first two, I told God I understood.  But Pastor kept reading verses and reading verses.  It became almost comical as I’m thinking, “God, I got it….really, I got it.”  But, I think He knows me and knows I will quickly turn from obedience and love to my own self-centered choices.

It’s so clear. The whole Christian life is summed up on loving God and loving others.  It seems so easy – but in reality it is impossible without God’s help. Love is a choice. Make a commitment before emotions get involved.  Then, follow through on that commitment regardless of how you might feel in the moment.  Trust God to meet you where you are and help you when you don’t think you can do it.

Luke 10:27 He answered, “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your strength and with all your mind’; and, ‘Love your neighbor as yourself

Mark 12:29-31 Jesus answered, “The most important is, ‘Hear, O Israel: The Lord our God, the Lord is one. And you shall love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind and with all your strength.’ The second is this: ‘You shall love your neighbor as yourself.’ There is no other commandment greater than these.”

James 2:8   If you really fulfill the royal law according to the Scripture, “You shall love your neighbor as yourself,” you are doing well

1 Cor. 14:4-7 “ Love is patient and kind; love does not envy or boast; it is not arrogant or rude. It does not insist on its own way; it is not irritable or resentful; it does not rejoice at wrongdoing, but rejoices with the truth. Love bears all things, believes all things, hopes all things, endures all things.”

Eph. 4:32 “Be kind and compassionate to one another, forgiving each other, just as in Christ God forgave you.”

Rom. 12:10 “Be devoted to one another in love. Honor one another above yourselves”